Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Enough




I am not going to lie
understanding the grace of God only happens through hardship
When I sing at church...
"Your grace is enough"
I want to think I mean it, 
but then hardship comes in waves
crashing down relentlessly
Barely enough time to breath 
and I cry out for more than grace

I cry out for things I think I need to survive
things I think will keep me from sinking
stability
love from others
community
safety
physical provision

I complain about silly things like
weather
my appearance
falling apart suitcases
gray hair
gas prices
health insurance

And the silence is deafening from My Lord
for He clearly told me
"My grace is enough......."

Oh to rest in this!

I must rest in this

We sing so many songs about God's grace
Its healing power
Its ability to turn a person's story around

But to embrace grace
I must lay down everything else I have chosen to soothe me
I must choose to embrace weakness
For grace can only heal and mend the broken places alone

control, fear, anxiety 
are ungraceful 
they cause me to respond to life poorly

I need grace
God's grace
I am begging for it

to say I desire to be weak is still hard to embrace
who wants to be weak?

Right now
I do
and 
I am

I am weak and weary
and in my worldly weariness 
I desire a break
a chance to get my breath

But God says
"My power is made perfect in weakness"

I want to believe

Lord help me be brave enough to live this truth

Your Grace is enough.....



2 Corinthians 12:7-10 (VOICE)

To keep me grounded 
and stop me from becoming too high and mighty 
due to the extraordinary character of these revelations, 
I was given a thorn in the flesh—
a nagging nuisance of Satan, a messenger to plague me! 
I begged the Lord three times to liberate me from its anguish; 
and finally He said to me, 
“My grace is enough to cover and sustain you. 
My power is made perfect in weakness.” 
So ask me about my thorn, 
inquire about my weaknesses, 
and I will gladly go on and on—
I would rather stake my claim in these 
and have the power of the Anointed One at home within me. 
I am at peace and even take pleasure
 in any weaknesses, 
insults, 
hardships, 
persecutions, 
and afflictions 
for the sake of the Anointed 
because when I am at my weakest, 
He makes me strong.