Monday, February 29, 2016

The gift of disappoinment





Humans are planners
We just can't help ourselves
I am convinced it is ingrained in us
To look ahead
To imagine the outcome



But the truth is
things never turn out like we assumed they would
We can plan all we like
scrimp and save
We can scheme and jot it all down
make maps and charts



form teams and groups
discuss how to get from A to B
gain a majority vote



gain energy and momentum
we may even see progress

But then we hit a snag
we get beat up and bruised along the way
discouragement creeps in
and before you know it
joy is lost
the master plan falls apart

This life is full of disappointments
and the sorrow that comes from it 
runs deep
making it hard to shake
giving way to physical symptoms



In my own life
I have found that it is at this very moment
when all seems lost and confused
and the hurt is beginning to make roots
that choices must be made

I must make a choice

How I respond is most important.

I grieve for the dream lost
I seek guidance through prayer
I lay down my anger, my pride
I remember who I am
who I represent

I respond instead of react



Responding within the situation
Not reacting out of emotion

Oh to be like Jesus!
Over and over in the Gospels
He models how to
Respond versus React

So many times He was disappointed 
at how even those close to Him
misunderstood His intentions
and at times were unable to follow Him
as He intended



I think of the night when He asked those closest to Him
to just stay awake and pray with and for Him.
He knew of the hard work that His Father 
had yet for Him to do.
But those that He relied most on
here on earth....
they could not stay awake and keep watch
on this very lonely night
as Jesus prayed
It is all He asked...
just watch and pray....
and instead they slept.

Disappointment

And yet, within this
Jesus was aware that this task was His alone to accomplish
His alone

I thank My Lord for this example....
for it reminds me
circumstances and people will disappoint

I may desire for those close to me to go with me
where I know the Lord is leading me
with a task He has assigned to me

And when they do not follow
when they misunderstand me
when they sleep...

I will be disappointed

But that does not mean I do not continue
to follow and finish what God has asked me to do.

The way He intends

Not with my plan
Not my way

Jesus is my perfect example of how to respond 
to being disappointed with the way things are going
 and with others in my life.

I trust God
through my disappointment
I follow God's plan
through my sorrow

Fully understanding that God's way is perfect
and His plan will be fulfilled

This is the gift....I really do Trust God more than anything else




Matthew 26:36-46

Then Jesus went with his followers to a place called Gethsemane. 
He said to them, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.” 
He took Peter and the two sons of Zebedee with him, 
and he began to be very sad and troubled. 
He said to them, 
“My heart is full of sorrow, to the point of death. 
Stay here and watch with me.”

After walking a little farther away from them, 
Jesus fell to the ground and prayed, 
“My Father, if it is possible, do not give me this cup of suffering. 
But do what you want, not what I want.” 
Then Jesus went back to his followers and found them asleep. 
He said to Peter, 
“You men could not stay awake with me for one hour? 
Stay awake and pray for strength against temptation. 
The spirit wants to do what is right, but the body is weak.”

Then Jesus went away a second time and prayed, 
“My Father, 
if it is not possible 
for this painful thing to be taken from me, 
and if I must do it, 
I pray that what you want will be done.”

Then he went back to his followers, 
and again he found them asleep, 
because their eyes were heavy. 
So Jesus left them and went away and prayed a third time, 
saying the same thing.

Then Jesus went back to his followers and said, 
“Are you still sleeping and resting? 
The time has come 
for the Son of Man to be handed over to sinful people. 
Get up, we must go. 
Look, here comes the man who has turned against me.”