Friday, October 10, 2014

Preparing

There is a reason I have been blogging less...

It has been 27 years since this old brain has cracked a text book
I am now in my second semester of college
Why?
I ask that same question as I am preparing to write a 7 page paper...

There is something in the air
I have felt urged to move in this direction
I pray, 
I ask for direction, 
I ask why

I don't know the end of this story
but I do know that I am preparing,
preparing for something more 
that God is going to ask of me
There are days that I feel that He has asked so much of me already
to move across the country
to start over
to leave a family I adore
to leave a ministry I loved
to begin again
to invest in strangers who are now friends
so much...
Now this,
regenerating this old brain,
days of reading and writing,
days of studying,
preparing for what?
I am driven to do this thing
even though I know not where it will take me
there is no doubt in my mind 
I am in tune with my Heavenly Father

I think that even if My Lord attempted to explain to me
what comes next
I would not fully understand
but I trust Him

Although I am fully aware 
that what I am experiencing is not in the same league...
this experience causes me to reflect on those Old Testament adventurers
the ones who felt compelled to do things that made no sense on paper
Noah...built an ark on dry land
Abraham...picked up and moved on a promise
Sarah...raised a promised child in her old age
Hagar...went back to a family who resented her
Rahab...protected two spies
Ruth...alone, supported her mother in law
Samuel...pursued an unlikely king 
David...stood up to a giant

I long to live my life "on purpose".
with My God in the center
guiding my steps
to a place only He knows.
This back-to-college season
which makes no sense on paper
I know makes perfect sense
to the only one that matters

My Holy Teacher
My Perfect Provider
The One who can dust off the cobwebs in this old brain
He holds the compass

Although I do not fully know why,
I have clues
I am excited at the possibilities
to serve My King, 
My Everything
1 Peter 1:3-9 (ncv, personalized)
Praise be to the God and Father of my Lord Jesus Christ.
In God's great mercy He has caused me
to be born again into a living hope,
because Jesus Christ has rose from the dead.
Now I hope for the blessing God has for His children.
These blessing, which cannot be destroyed 
or be spoiled
or lose their beauty,
are kept in heaven for me.
God's power protects me through my faith 
until salvation is shown to me at the end of time.
This makes me very happy,
even though now for a short time 
different kinds of trouble may make me sad.
These troubles come to prove my faith is pure.
This purity of faith is worth more than gold,
which can be proved to be pure by fire but will ruin.
But the purity of my faith will bring praise and glory and honor
when Jesus Christ is shown to me.
I have not seen Christ,
but still I love Him.
I cannot see Him now,
but I believe in Him.
So, I am filled with joy that cannot be explained,
a joy full of glory.
And I am receiving the goal of my faith -- the salvation of my soul.



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