Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Out of the Dark

I am convinced that when I speak out loud, 
of the things that I struggle with,
it takes the darkness out of it

Bringing it into the light 
is the beginning of turning the right direction
It really does not matter what it is
This does not mean it will go away
But when it is pulled out of the dark, 
where I have been secretly suffering with it
Truth happens, 
healing begins, 
perspective is gained.

It is in the dark that my concerns become 
worry which evolves into 
Causing sleeplessness, 
physical heart ache, 
fear of the possibilities, 
racing in my mind with scenarios.

Once the morning light comes through the window, 
my perspective begins to change. 
I feel like I have a chance to get my mind right. 
But that middle of the night...gets me every time.

Why do I choose to keep some things in the dark? 
fear that others wont understand 
or will abandon me if they really knew my thoughts.

The dark, my fearfulness and negative thoughts
when I am unprepared
can take its tole on my life

I know of others that struggle in the dark as well.

But unlike the lost and hard-hearted in this fallen world we live in,
those of us that are children of The Most High God
have a way to combat the darkness

Now the world would argue that they have a way of escape as well
but in the end, all are short lived.
social media
looking for love in all the wrong places
etc., etc,. etc.

But, My Abba Father has given me something 
that never wears out,
that always works, 
does not disappoint, 
does not need renewed,
was purchased once and for all,
It is the perfect way to help me step out of the dark.

God the creator and sustainer of all things
Jesus the light of the world
Holy Spirit guide

When I stay in the presence of the Triune God
even when I find myself physically in the dark
even when my mind wakes up in the middle of the night with worry
even when I can not see the answer
even when ....

There is not a place in this whole wide world that the Triune God can not go.
I claim this truth and pray for help
when I feel weak and unable to right myself.
I find others who are like minded to help me on my journey.

The result:
a joy-filled life versus a happiness seeking life
a beyond understanding peace versus control seeking life
a good nights sleep versus restless nights

His Light!
I seek it and it pulls me out of the dark like nothing this world can offer.

My hope and prayer is to guide others to this truth...
God loves His children
Jesus paid it all
He left us with a Guide

I will still struggle with things in the dark
but now I have the tools to move into the light.

What a Great God I have!

I love how this version puts it
Psalm 139: 1-12 (voice)
O Eternal One
You have explored my heart and know exactly who I am;
You even know the small details
like when I take a seat and when I stand up again.
Even when I am far away,
You know what I am thinking.
You observe me wanderings and my sleeping,
my waking and my dreaming,
and You know everything I do in more detail than even I know.
You know what I am going to say long before I say it.
It is true, Eternal One,
that you know everything and everyone.
You have surrounded me on every side, 
behind me and before me,
and You have placed Your hand gently on my shoulder.
It is the most amazing feeling to know how deeply You know me,
inside and out;
The realization of it is so great that I cannot comprehend it.
Can I go anywhere apart from Your Spirit?
Is there anywhere I can go to escape Your watchful presence?
If I go up into heaven, You are there.
If I make my bed in the realm of the dead, You are there.
If I ride on the wings of morning,
If I make my home in the most isolated part of the ocean,
Even then You will be there to guide me;
You right hand will embrace me, for You are always there.
Even if I am afraid and think to myself,
"There is no doubt that the darkness will swallow me,
the light around me will soon be turned to night,"
You can see in the dark, for it is not dark to Your eyes.
For you the night is just as bright as the day.
Darkness and light are the same to Your eyes.

Thursday, August 7, 2014


I have been in this foreign land for over a year now
I am no longer afraid of getting lost
I have gotten used to this quieter life
But, there is one part of this that I continue to struggle with...

Communication with those that I no longer see on a regular basis
I am thankful that I do not have to wait for the "pony-express", 
to hear how those I love are doing.
phone calling, 
it is not the same

and time has a way of sifting 
those that were friends for a season 
from those that are friends for a lifetime

There are really no hard feelings
time marches on, as they say
people get busy

This whole experience causes me to ponder 
how well I stay connected to my Heavenly Father.

Sometimes I get busy 
and then realize it has been a while 
since I have met with Him.
I take for granted that, 
when I have time, 
He will be there for me.
He loves me, you see.
And I love Him.

Although this is true
taking advantage of the fact that 
my Heavenly Father will never leave me
does not foster a close, trusting, intimate relationship.

It feels like when I have not seen someone for a long time,
instead of having a sweet conversation,
we spend the time "catching up" on life.

God and Jesus are the most important things in my life
If that is so
I need to act like it.

Connecting with my Lord and Savior
staying so close
that when others connect with me
His words are heard.

Staying connected
shows love and devotion
Staying connected
grows trust and intimacy
Staying connected
Is the key to peace of mind

Psalm 17:6
I call to you God, and you answer me.
Listen to me now, and hear what I say.

Hebrews 4:16
Let us, then, feel very sure 
that we can come before God's throne where there is grace.  
There we can receive mercy and grace to help us when we need it.