Saturday, December 7, 2013

Be Mary

My focus has been all over the place these last few months.
I feel overstimulated
trying to embrace my new normal
Some days I wake up and think... I've got this
and then I see something 
or hear something that reminds me of how it use to be.
Whatever was I thinking when I said I was up for an adventure?
Dreaming of something more, 
not really knowing what that is.
Praying to be fully devoted to God 
and willing to be an instrument He can use.
I wonder if Mary ever had those thoughts?
This young girl
who knew and loved the God of the universe
Her life set before her
At the beginning of a grand adventure 
Thinking about being married, having kids with her betrothed

Then something changes the course of what she thought would be her life
a voice
an angel
and just like that
everything that she thought she knew changed
Luke 1:26-56 tells us all the details 
how the angel Gabriel spoke to her as the favored one.
How she did not get it and was troubled and pondered what it all could mean.
How the angel told her not to be afraid
and then proceeded to tell her why he was there and what was about to happen.

I truly can not imagine what that must have been like.

God had her in mind from the beginning of time,
to bring forth the next chapter in His story of redemption.

Her faith was grand.
She asked one question of the angel Gabriel
and he gave her answers that may have been hard to fully comprehend
but in time she would understand.

After hearing all the angel Gabriel had to say
she responded to all she had heard in the most amazing way...

"Behold, the bondslave of the Lord; be it done to me according to your word." Luke 1:38

She did not say,
well, let me think about it and I will get back to you
or, I need to pray
or, I need to ask someone their thoughts about it
"be it done according to your word"
in the still of the moment
with only the knowledge she already had of God and His ways to guide her
she stepped forward willingly
into a path that she never saw coming
and yet she embraced it fully

Oh to be like Mary
to have a faith so complete in God 
that whatever He lays before me to experience and do
I willingly embrace with my whole heart and body
even when it is not what I had planned 
or thought I would be doing with my future

Oh to be like Mary
to believe what God revealed to me, 
His humble turtle girl,
the first time
not needing anything more 
to make me feel better about the path that lays before me
to confirm what I knew to be true

Oh to be like Mary
to trust the messenger
to respond respectfully with grace

Oh to be like Mary
to value God's opinion of me more than man's
When the world says it does not make sense
To follow
accepting the possibility that no one else will understand
or look at me the same way they use to.

Oh to be like Mary
to be comfortable not fully understanding God's plan for my life
but following Him anyway
into the dark
into the unknown
humbly asking, "how can this be?" Luke 1:34 
One question, not a million.
without panic.
Showing self control, 
taking it all in
and responding to the answer given with...
"be it done to me according to your word" Luke 1:38

Oh to be like Mary
to be able to store up the things I don't understand
to ponder not panic
to praise
to rest in the God who will 
if needed provide further understanding 
but also to be at peace when there is no explanation

Hear it all in Mary's Song....
Luke 1:46-55 (ncv)
"My soul praises the Lord;
my heart rejoices in God my Savior,
because He has shown His concern for His humble servant girl.
From now on, all people will say that I am blessed,
because the Powerful One has done great things for me.
His name is Holy.
God will show His mercy forever and ever
to those who worship and serve Him.
He has done mighty deeds by His power. 
He has scattered the people who are proud
and think great things about themselves.
He has brought down rulers from their thrones
and raised up the humble.
He as filled the hungry with good things
and sent the rich away with nothing.
51 He has helped His servant, the people of Israel,
remembering to show them mercy
as He promised to our ancestors,
to Abraham and to his children forever."

Oh to be like Mary
as the redemption story continues to unfold
to look around in wonder
to ponder
and like Mary
"to treasure up all these things, pondering them in her heart" Luke 2:19 & 51

As I wait expectantly for the day where the world recognizes the birth of Jesus
I think of the woman that will forever be marked by
a worshipful, teachable, humble heart.

May we all strive to be open handed when it comes to what God has for us.

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