Thursday, September 12, 2013

Apples and Oranges

It is silly really
trying to compare
and yet, I find myself doing it all the time.
first it starts with the little things...
comparing the weather
comparing the roads
comparing the grocery stores
comparing the TV stations
comparing the vegetation
comparing the people

Why shouldn't I compare?
All I am doing is trying to make sense of all the differences
harmless, right?

Now I am not so sure

For, if I am really honest with myself
at the root of comparing
is the question of whether I am content or not

Is it okay to "miss" driving on a grid?

and miss other things that do not exist in my new place?
like a decent Mexican restaurant 
or chorizo at the meat counter?

(which has a totally different meaning here,by the way)


I can truly say that in the missing

my heart is not longing for what was
more than being content with what is

my heart is not longing for what was
more than being willing to be invested in what is

my heart is not longing for what was
more than being open to letting go of the familiar 
and replacing it with different 

There is no room for contentment 
when I am comparing what was with what is
In fact, as long as my eyes are scanning for comparisons
I have no room for the Holy Spirit to reveal His presence where I am

oranges will never be apples, although I can eat either

flat land will never be hills, although I can walk either

dry heat will never be rainy days, although I can feel either

barrel cactus will never be poison ivy, although I can be hurt by either

Safeway will never be Giant Eagle, although I can shop at either   
Arizona will never be Pennsylvania, although I can live in either

There is no comparison
So I am going to stop trying

My time is better spent in the everyday joyful expectation of discovering
new places
new habits
new friends
new foods
and joining in where God is at work here where I am!

Isaiah 43:18-19
The Voice
Don't revel only in the past,
or spend all your time recounting
the victories of the days gone by.
Watch closely:
I am preparing something new;
it's happening now, even as I speak,
and you're about to see it.
I am preparing a way through the desert;
Waters will flow where there had been none.

1 Timothy 6:6-8
The Voice 
This is ironic because godliness, 
along with contentment, 
does put us ahead but not in the ways some imagine. 
You see we came into this world with nothing, 
and nothing is going with us on the way out! 
So as long as we are clothed and fed, 
we should be happy.

Lamentations 3:21-23
The Voice
Gaining hope,
 I remember and wait for this thought:
How enduring is God’s loyal love;
 the Eternal has inexhaustible compassion.
Here they are, every morning, new!
 Your faithfulness, God, is as broad as the day.

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