Friday, June 21, 2013

On Paper

Jeremiah 29:11-13
New Century Version (NCV)
I say this because I know what I am planning for you, says the Lord.
I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you.
I will give you hope and a good future. 
Then you will call my name.
You will come to me and pray to me, and I will listen to you.   
You will search for me.
And when you search for me with all your heart,
you will find me!

Here it is the end of June
and all I can do is look back at this last year in wonder.

My little family has been through the wringer.
Each one of us has had our own personal struggles and challenges 
and as a family unit we have been stretched
farther than we thought possible.

On paper this past year looks
messy, scary, ridiculous, unsettling, depressing, out of control

On paper if this past year had been graphed out,
there was a definite dip and that is where it stayed for a while.

On paper, the four people plus one dog that lived through the past year,
would appear to have been in a downward spiral of sorts.

On paper.....

But life does not happen on paper

On paper it is impossible
to see strength, faith and what "circling the wagons" entails.

On paper it is impossible
to feel what it is like to lose, learn and recover.

I think we are all still trying to make sense of what this past year was about,
but what we know for sure is:
God never left us
Good or bad, we must live with the consequences of our actions
There is strength in numbers, we are not meant to be alone in our struggle
Prayer works
Patience is rewarded
His solution may not be our solution
Stepping into the unknown in faith is exhilarating

Being a child of God,
I know that there are some things I cannot comprehend
without suffering
without experiencing hardship
without having a teachable heart

For that reason,
I choose to look at this past year
as a blessing.

My God story is richer because of this past year.
My children's faith is stronger,
for they were audience to how God cares for those He loves.
My marriage is better than it has ever been,
for we humbly stayed on our knees together,
patiently listening for His direction for our lives.

I don't want to waste anything that has happened in my life.

good, bad, happy or sad

I am using it all for His glory   


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