Tuesday, May 21, 2013

A Long, Good Goodbye

When I first found out that Wes and I would be moving
to the Pittsburgh area,
it seemed unreal.

I could not even picture what that would look like.
I have lived pretty much in the same area my whole life.
Embedded in family, church, a house,
a dog, ......

I have mused in the past of living somewhere else
I mean other people do it
It must be exciting to have an adventure like that

But when push came to shove, I could not imagine it.

It took time

Time that my Sweet Abba Father
willingly,
lovingly
and abundantly gave to me.

He gave me a whole 6 months from start to finish
to wrap my arms around this new thing.
To finish and tie up the loose ends of my Arizona life.
To have last conversations
last coffee dates
last tea dates
last lunches
last hugs
last hand holdings
last acts of service to loved ones
last moments of encouraging
and releasing my flock of lambs I have been coaching and caring for,
you know who you are!

I have loved every minute of this process

I could not have asked for anything more.
It has been more than I deserve.

I have laughed till I cried
I have cried till I have had no more tears
I have held tight to an idea that I could do both,

be invested in both places.

But, through this process of my long goodbye
I have been open to what ever God has for me.
And what He has for me
right now
is
to let go
let go of what is familiar
to not look back
to let go of all of it
to begin a new thing
whole heartedly
with everything I have

God never let's us stand still for long
His plan is bigger than we can imagine

So, for those I am leaving and letting go of...
I love you
I know you can keep your eyes on Jesus
without my reminders
I will be watching and praying

Psalm 37:23 and 24 are for you...

 If you are right with God, He strengthens you for the journey;
    the Eternal will be pleased with your life.
And even though you trip up, you will not fall on your face
    because He holds you by the hand.


for those I am just getting to know...
I love you already
I know that as we walk together
our faith will grow stronger and we will be knit together in service to our Lord.

It has been a wonderful Long, Good, Goodbye

Now it is time for some Grand, Exciting, Hellos

I am off to the airport

going home

leaving what is now my past 

to go home

Goodbye.....

Hello....

Psalm 37: 3-5 is my personal prayer and promise....
I believe in the Eternal,
and I will do what is good--
I am going to live in the land He has provided for me,
I am going to roam in the land
and I am going to rest in God's faithfulness in my life.
I am taking great joy in the Eternal!
His gifts in this new land are coming,
and they are all my heart desires!
I am continuing to commit my path to the Eternal;
I am letting Him direct me.
I am putting my confidence in Him,
He has promised to follow through with me.  






1 comment:

  1. Wes is waiting and he is glad, O, so glad, I am sad,I love you, but I am excited about your new adventure. Love and prayers. Helen

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